And Just Like That….

You were here just a few days ago and now you are gone. Just like that. My life is suddenly different from two different angles. In the past few months, I have seen the claws of Alzheimer’s Disease tear away the mind of a loved one. Though he is there, he is gone. Sometimes I see a glimmer. And that makes the reality more evident that most of the time, he is not with us anymore.

My grandson left yesterday, too. He is now serving his country. He was excited to take on this mission. We are proud, but he is gone from us for a while. And so loneliness seems to be pulling me from two different directions.

Gone for now are the smiles, the voice, the hugs, the silliness, the laughter, the fun. And in its place, there is loneliness. Emptiness. Quiet.

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How do we make it through these days, and even longer nights? We look at the pictures over and over. There he is. I remember the time when we… We talk with each other. We hang on. And in the midst of all of this, we grasp for our faith. We know that in our weakness, God makes us strong. We pull ourselves up, one small inch at a time, and move forward. There will be a time for connection again. I will see my grandson soon. He will bring his smiling face back for a visit, and another, and another. We will have the hugs, the laughter, the silliness, and the love, in our presence once again. Our hearts will be full.

My loved one with Alzheimer’s will be present again because when he leaves this earth, he will be waiting for his family in heaven. We will have the laughter and hugs again someday. And our hearts will be full.

Until that time of reconnection, I will remember that my plans are not my own. I cannot see the plans God has, but I know He has them. I cannot know the next steps in my life, but there will be steps. And I will not be walking alone.

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and hope Jeremiah 29:11

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The Journey Begins

Thanks for joining me! Please walk this journey with me as I begin this blog.

We all have our ups and downs in life. And then some of us have craters that we fall into and struggle to find our way out. That is me. Ask my Mom and she would tell you that I began falling into craters early and continued for some time! But seriously, when we are at our lowest is when we can become strong. All strength comes from only one source: our God and Savior.

Perhaps, like some of you, it took a really deep deep crater in my life to wake me up. Hopefully it did not take you as long as it took me. I fought my way out of that deep crater for 18 years. Now, through writing devotional books based on personal experiences, my hope is that others can use these devotional books and this blog to help them along more quickly.

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Let me set the record straight. I had plenty of education and training and should have been able to jump out of life’s craters with ease. After all, I have a Ph.D. in psychology and another doctorate in education. Granted I knew all of the techniques, therapies, and theories to remedy a crisis for someone else. When it came to finding solutions for myself, it took years and years. In the end, all of the theories and techniques hardly scratched the surface of healing. I finally figured out that God was walking beside me the whole way. Realizing He was there set me on the straight path and took me out of the crater. He helps us all when we ask.

In the future this blog will include devotionals and other writings. There is only one goal of this blog: to help others find their way. With that in mind, if you have a topic for a devotional, feel free to send it my way. Until the next posting, read Scripture and other sources of strength and hope. And remember: All things are possible with Christ.

 

 

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